What do I see ? (a bit of prose this one)

I see through my eyes,
but am never sure what it is I'm seeing,
is it the stormy winds ?
is it the raging seas, as they lash onto the beach ?
Or is it the powerful emotions hidden in the depths of time ?

I see the rainbow,
as it falls onto the sands,
yet even though I reach out, it's just far from my grasp,
still I reach, stretching further and further away,
searching for the answers of my life.

I see the sea fret,
as it rolls deeper in land towards me,
and i sit and sit, just watching the scene play infront of me,
and the landscape changes before my very eyes,
and I wonder what the future holds for me ?

I see passion and power,
a struggle for control of the inner turmoil
a dream once harboured, shattered into the dust of the sand,
and I sit and stare, never sure of what I'm seeing,
as I search for the answers of my life....

Moments

Moments I remember,
moments I recall,
deepest revalations
as I offer up my all,
I give to you my promise
I give to you my pledge,
as I hold tenderly these moments
and I give to you an edge.

I relish every breath,
relish every day,
as I say a silent thank you
for these quiet words I say,
as I sit here in the silence
and I sit here in the dark
and listen to the pounding,
of the rhythm of my heart.

Yet I know I can't ask for more
can't ask for this precious dream,
as it's becoming a reality
yet not as it may seem.

A Time In Life

My life flies past
with the speed of a sound,
discombobulating,
burying underground,
a souless expression,
a marching beat,
a clashing of images,
the stamping of feet.

I watch the sun rise in the east
see it set in the west,
imagery and trickery
some of the best,
as I head onto what my fate holds,
as my life carries on, as I grow old.

A discerning smile,
disarms my everything,
makes me wonder
what am I doing here ?
what is my life?
do I have anything to fear ?
hide the trouble and strife.

bury my head in the sand,
something I used to do,
not any longer,
I face it head on,
its made me stronger,
as my life carries on,
taking me to a higher level of understanding
deep within myself,
as I no longer leave myself on the shelf

The Spare Room

You take my hand and lead me from the kitchen, all the while keeping eye contact. The fact you are staring intently into my eyes makes me feel incredibly horny. Never before have I been so captivated. You just ooze sexuality, and it electrifies the air, surrounding us.
We slowly ascend the stairs, you leading the way, with me meekly following. Do you blame me, with such a diving view in front of me ? Mmm.
You slowly push the bedroom door open with your back, holding both my hands in yours. I look worried, as I know what is in that room, but you silence my protests with your gentle butterfly kisses on my lips, you breathe onto my face, sending my pulse racing more than it already is, and you very quietly say "don't worry lover, I'll be gentle". What on earth do you mean ? I hold my breath as we enter the room. In the room is a king size four poster bed and a wardrobe in the corner. This is the spare room, the place we keep things out of sight.
You push me onto the bed backwards, I lie there watching you, unsure of what you want me to do, it soon becomes apparent what you want !
My legs are hanging off the end of the bed and I feel you slowly kissing my feet. I have never been one for feet, but there is something sensual in them, when combined with the heady mix of you. I can feel myself becoming even more aroused than I was , as you kiss your way up my legs, reaching my thighs.
I look down at you, kneeling on the floor, you are watching my every move with your sexy eyes. I want you ! You caress my thighs as you kiss them, working closer and closer, until... You gently dip your tongue inside me, sending pulses through my body. I can barely contain myself. You look up with a grin on your face and say "gosh somebody was pleased to feel my tongue, you are soaking wet." Before I can answer you taste me again, god, you are driving me wild with desire. your tongue moves in and out and up and down, while your hands are running all over my body. I grab your hair, I can't hold back any longer, you know exactly how to get a woman hot under the collar! You can feel me pulsing on your tongue, as I can't resist any longer and explode.
You kiss your way up my still trembling and glistening body, and when you reach my lips, you kiss me deeply, running your tongue inside my lips. You move around my neck with gentle kisses and whisper in my ear "now my turn lover."
With this you sit astride my body and I reach up to caress your magnificent breasts, god they are so soft, you drive me crazy. I make a move to flip you over onto the bed, but you place your finger across my lips and shake your head. I'm confused and try to sit up, but you push me back down. You climb off me and walk over to the wardrobe and unlock it, you remove an object and bring it over to the bed, wearing your sexiest smile, ah so that is what you want !
Again, I try to get up, but you won't let me. you slide your hand under me, gently lifting me up slightly, and you push the belt underneath me. I lie there as you fasten the harness onto me and I see you smile as you look at the object protruding from my nether regions. I give you a slow lazy smile.
You climb up onto the bed, kissing me hard as you climb on top of me. As I enter you, you gasp, throwing your head back, as we rise and fall together. As we move in rhythm I can feel your breathing quicken. The fact you are enjoying it so much turns me on. Suddenly I feel you shudder and you collapse on top of me and we kiss. All of your energy has gone, you are exhausted.
We lie on the bed facing each other and I stroke your hair as we gently kiss. As we kiss you undo the harness and throw it to the floor, we move up the bed together.
I lie on my left side and you snuggle in behind me, your left arm wrapped around me, holding me tightly to you, hand on my right shoulder. Your right hand is gently caressing my right thigh.
I hold onto your left arm tightly, and with my right arm behind me, holding your right leg.
We fall asleep wrapped together tightly.

The Babysitter Goes Home

We arrive home and pay the babysitter, who then heads home. The sexual tension between us is almost unbearable, it's sizzling. I want you so bad it hurts !
I follow you into the kitchen, as you pour us both a glass of Bailey's and I push you against the fridge, kissing you. I run my hands over your hips and up inside your top, touching your warm soft skin, it is so smooth.
Your hands run through my hair, pulling it, forcing me closer to you. I caress your back, looking for your bra strap, only to discover that, not only did you go commando, but you went bra-less also. "Much easier access" I think, as I caress your breast with my right hand. I gently tickle your nipple, I know how that drives you wild. I roll it between my finger and thumb, causing you to gasp.
I lift your top over your head and kiss your shoulders, working my way down to your breasts, savouring every inch of your delicious skin. I take your nipple in my mouth and tantalise it with my tongue, before working lower across your stomach, casually removing those restrictive hot pants in the process. You stand in front of me, naked, an incredibly sexy sight ! I am kneeling on the floor before you and I kiss your inner thighs, I know this drives you crazy. You part your legs slightly in anticipation, but I carry on kissing your thighs. I want you to beg, just for a moment! In a quiet voice, almost a whisper, you say "please", I don't need asking twice.
I lift you up onto the edge of the worktop and stand between your legs, I kiss you deeply before kneeling down in front of you again. I bury my head between your legs, you are so ready. I tease you with my tongue , running it up and down, and in and out, I sense your need.
I gently touch you with my finger and you hold your breath, as I move in and out of you, at the same time as my tongue drives you insane. you tense and I feel you throb against me. You reach down and grab my tie, pulling me up, kissing me hard. Suddenly you pull my tie off and yank my shirt over my head.
What have you got on your mind ?

Rekindling Magic - Adults Only

I sit here quietly, sipping my drink at the bar. I glance around the room, through the mirrors behind the bar. The club is heaving with grinding bodies straining to the throngs of "Hung Up" by Madonna, blasting through the huge speakers. It's then that I see her, she sits alone at a pillar, with her drink, she sees me looking and smiles. She has the most mesmerising eyes. I can feel myself sinking into them, I want to lose myself in them.
I find myself getting up off my stool and my feet are carrying me over to her, I have no say in the matter! I don't normally do this sort of thing, but I need to dance with her. I take her hand and lead her to the dance floor, our eyes never leaving each others. God, she is so beautiful!
She stands in front of me and gently sways in time to the music, using her body against mine, I put my hand into the small of her back, she grabs my tie and throws herself back. Even though we haven't even spoken yet, she trusts me. She rubs her body against mine, running her hands through my hair, pulling my lips against hers. I sink into her embrace, as we continue to gyrate together. Her style of dancing is so erotic, my heartbeat is out of control, she must surely be able to feel the affect she is having on me ? She nibbles my bottom lip, I let out a gasp and she leans up and whispers in my ear "you like that ?", more a statement than a question. I can only nod, I am incapable of words, this girl has my total and undivided attention. At this moment I would gladly give her anything she asked for.
Again she grabs my tie and casually circles me, still holding it, staring into my eyes intensely, "I love a woman with a tie on" she whispers before kissing me again. It's like we're the only couple on the dance floor, everyone else has melted away.
She takes me hand and leads me from the floor, through the people, it's like the parting of the waves. Everyone moves for her, she is so damned beautiful. She leads me to the darkest corner of the club and pulls me into a sitting position, in a booth. She then straddles my lap and deeply kisses me. God, this woman is sexy, I want her so badly. As if she senses my need she whispers "patience lover" before kissing my ear and neck. If we weren't in a club I would be unable to exercise any constraint. As it is she is undoing my shirt buttons from the middle, she slides her hand inside, gently caressing my breasts. I can't breathe! It's a good job she is sat on my lap, I think we'd be thrown out for indecency.
I casually look around to check nobody is watching, there are couple locked in embraces everywhere. Has she done this before ? At this exact moment I don't really care!
Her fingers have undone the belt of my trousers and the fly, my God it's hot in here! She runs her hand along the edge of the waistband, forcing her hands further inside the trousers. I knew it was a good idea to go commando! All my thoughts stop as she reaches her destination. "Oh, now I know you like that" she purrs into my left ear, as I emit a sharp intake of breath, whilst she adjusts her position slightly. Her soft fingers move lower and lower, she is driving me wild with desire and doesn't she know it ! She hits her mark and I almost fall off the chair, but she won't allow me to move at all. I grab her hips as she works her magic on me, she grinds herself into me, pushing me further and further over the edge.
My fingers find the leg of her hot pants, I can't help but slide them under. I am not the only one to have gone commando! Nor am I the only one to have enjoyed our little display ! As I touch her she holds her breath and bites her bottom lip, I kiss her roughly and move my hand in time with the music. We hold each other tightly, oblivious to all that is around us, knowing that we could be caught at any moment.
Afterwards we sit together and share a bottle of wine, before she stands up, kisses me full on the lips, grabs my tie and pulls me back onto the dance floor, moving to the sounds of "Rain Down Love"."One last dance lover, before we go home and relieve the babysitter ?"

My Friends

I see the sunrise, across the land
I feel the warmth deep within your hand
you hold me tight, please don't let go,
the trust and love I have, I try to show.
But I'm a person who hides behind,
the wall of emotion, and leave to find,
another memory, another chance
another heart, another glance.

So on I go, hiding whats within
as I start and end my life of sin,
as I cherish the smile you sent to me,
a heart of love only I can see,
as I build my life up from the ashes,
before it flies and quickly passes,
and share my dreams in this form of words,
and hope the tears are never heard.

I thank you all for the love you give,
the way you give me for something to live,
if I hold you dear and all so close,
my heart will never be morose,
as I take a hard knock on the chin
and kickstart my life as its about to begin.

Thanks my friends.

Fear

I feel my fear as it surrounds my very all,
it encapsulates me makes me small,
terrorises every breath,
as I try to smile in this face of dread.

I ignore the pressure that grows inside,
as all my fears burst me open wide,
I grin and bear it so to speak,
yet deep within I feel so weak

I deeply ache though I smile and joke,
I hide emotions, deep inside I choke,
I try to focus on the good I share,
and try not to show how much I care.

But until I know the positive outcome
I hide behond my wall of humdrum,
and cherish every waking dream,
as things may never be as they seem.

The Spirit

As I approach the castle,
lying dark and foreboding in the mist,
the shadows comprehend me,
like a story with a twist,
discombobulating memories
shroud my every sound,
as I walk within these walls of time
and have a look around.

A figure stands from high above,
staring down below,
is he watching what I do,
or willing me to go ?
Then I realise that where he waits
no floor is for his footing,
so how can he stand so tall and proud,
calmly watching and looking ?

Do I see an apparition
is this what I came for,
have I got the finally proof
of an afterlife and open door ?
Or is this ghost a figment of imagination
playing with my mind,
one thing's for sure within my heart
I won't be left behind.

Life

So many emotions run through my head,
challenging promises never once said,
dreams and related screaming my name,
is this for real or only a game ?

Nobody knows what life will deal out,
happiness, sorrow, together no doubt,
but the way that we choose comes deep within,
as our lives carry forward to a time to begin.

Nothing is easy as we forge on ahead,
a mountain to climb from a word unread,
making an obstacle so hard to climb
as onwards we plod, taking our time.

But things said in haste are never so grand
causing untold promise at the flash of a hand,
so taking our time is the only way how
as we start our lives only we know how.

As we look to the future and know not what it holds,
and we stand up so tall, with power so bold,
and march at the enemy stare right in its face
and long to be counted in the deep human race.