Fear

I feel my fear as it surrounds my very all,
it encapsulates me makes me small,
terrorises every breath,
as I try to smile in this face of dread.

I ignore the pressure that grows inside,
as all my fears burst me open wide,
I grin and bear it so to speak,
yet deep within I feel so weak

I deeply ache though I smile and joke,
I hide emotions, deep inside I choke,
I try to focus on the good I share,
and try not to show how much I care.

But until I know the positive outcome
I hide behond my wall of humdrum,
and cherish every waking dream,
as things may never be as they seem.